EET

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it; you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to feel the beat.

Bee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.
Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.

You spend half of your life trying to fall behind.
You're using your headphones to drown out your mind.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to move your feet.

Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.
Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.

*musical interlude*

Someone's deciding whether or not to steal.
He opens a window just to feel the chill.
He hears that outside a small boy just started to cry
'Cause it's his turn, but his brother won't let him try.

*musical interlude*

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it; you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to move your feet.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to feel the beat... 

One Year

in 525,600 minutes I managed to change completely

in 365 days I managed to sacrifice everything to lose weight

in 52 weeks I managed to get skinny enough to like myself

in one week I managed to gain it all back

fuck.

Staring

Staring at a blank screen
can't form the words for anything any more
so many thoughts - keeping me from living my life
from being the girl I want to be
putting my weight in front of everything
in front of school - used to be the most important thing
now it's just food food food

So exhausted
wake me up when it's over
so i sit here
staring at a blank screen
wondering what happened to that girl
that girl who could do everything
and not care about her weight

Staring at my reflection

disgusted.

battling with myself

i'm a hazard to myself

Staring at a pack of pills
wondering what it would be like
scared by my own thoughts
no, i don't want to die
I just want to feel better
I wonder if 6 would do it
worth a try?

Staring at my wrists
wondering if going back would help
because im desperate
i need something, anything
to make this go away

Staring into your eyes
wondering if you feel the same
you make me feel better

You Are the Best Thing That's Ever Been Mine

and that's not easy...

you make me feel like i'm worth something...

you make me want to change, not for you but for myself,

 because you make me feel like I don't have to be thin, that i'm beautiful in your eyes no matter what

You make me believe in myself

...and you're not even mine yet

for you, i'll wait