Have you ever done something, knowing it was bad, and when it's over you promise yourself you'll never do it again, but after a while... You miss it, and you wonder why you didn't do it?
I miss starving myself... I miss throwing up... I miss everything.
I miss that satisfaction I got from feeling hungry.
Every body thinks I'm better now, so there's no suspicion if I start again
Plus, I will feel so much better, with all this stress and everything, its exactly what I need
I can't sit with my real friends at lunch because I'm embarrassed to eat in front of them,
If I start starving again, I can be with them...
Atm it feels like this will make me so much happier
The only problem is I still haven't been 100% which means that I could possibly pass out again, and every one will get suspicious again... So what do I do?
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