I've started cutting myself again...
but this time not for the same reasons,
i guess the previously mentioned rubber band training lead to it,
i keep on screwing up my fasting so i'd been snapping rubber bands 50-200 times a day, but one day my mom was home all day and for the first time since i can remember i ate 3 meals that day and although i threw most of it up, i needed to punish myself more
and this way, i can feel the pain all the time and it will remind me how determined i am
i'm not giving up on this, i may keep failing but eventually ill pull off another fast, because that was the greatest feeling everr
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