Change...

They say change is the only constant in life.. i guess i'd have to agree but... going through old photos i can't help but notice how much things have changed since last year... it scares me :S

In the photos of me last year, i wasn't that much fatter, but i didn't care, i loved who i was even though everybody around me hated how full of myself i was.
In the photos from this year i'm smiling, but there's pain in my eyes and it loos like something has sucked the life out of me... and something has, it was me.
Even though i completelly understand what's going on now... i still dont understand what happened... what changed? Why do i hate myself so much now? what was it that pushed me off the edge? Can i change back? I don't know...