Thoughts

keep starving...
keep throwing up...
keep losing weight
focus on it, but don't think about it
don't think about anything
don't let it get to you
don't think about how you're best friend hates you,
and how everybody expects you to be over it
but they have no idea how hard it is
don't think about how you now have nobody,
how you're the only one left who cares,
don't think about how you can't do any of the things you used to be good at
or that after everything i put everyone through, i'm still disgusted by my own reflection
stop it. block it out.
channel it into losing weight
hopefully soon, i'll be good enough to be loved
just don't think...