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I thought i was starting to feel better, but then the pain comes back and i can't handle it anymre... everrybody is dumping everything on me thinking im strong enough to take it... IM NOT OKAY?! IM WEAKER THAN IV EVER BEEN IN A LONG TIME AND NOBODY NOTICES OR CARES SO ALL I CAN DO IS KEEP ON HURTING MYSELF UNTIL ITS NO LONGER SATISFYING AND I NEED TO DO SOMETHING MORE DRASTIC!
i can't do this anymore...i just can't... this pain is too real, i wonder if i'll ever be happy, like genuinely happy for more than an hour before i start to feel like shit again... and is it worth the wait? im not sure what to do because i vowed to stop hurting myself because people are going to notice sooner or later...but im not sure what to do anymore... if i talk to somebody they won't listen... i don't even know what to say anymore... so much pain... i can't even put it into words... just have to keep pretending...